2014 was the best year of my life. I grew my business, Tyler came home from his mission, I got engaged, got MARRIED, and many other exciting things. But 2015?! 2015 was probably hands down, the hardest year of my life so far. But it was probably the best year FOR me because I learned so many invaluable things about my business, photography, and myself.
I think that through struggle and mistakes we can learn powerful lessons. So here are some things I have learned and grown from!
1. You can't do it all: For my whole life I've been a bubbly, happy, positive person! And I've always loved that about myself, and it's helped my business grow like no other. But at the beginning of this year I swirled into an anxiety-ridden depression that turned my entire world around. ( I would later come to find out that a lot of this was due to a medication I was taking. Lovely. I know) But I found myself loosing my passion, my happiness, and my drive for life. Running my business and graduating college was the breaking point for me and I completely lost it. I had never felt so dark and low. Ever. It was all too much to handle for me even though I pretended that I could handle it all. I learned that only YOU know how much stress you can handle and you shouldn't take on too much at the same time or you will start loosing who you really are. Luckily when Summer rolled around I was blessed with the most AMAZING weddings and clients that reminded me of how much I loved being a photographer.
2. Happiness brings more happiness: I love my clients. And I LOVE their sessions. The fact that my job allows me to hang you with sweet, happy, amazing couples in love brings me so much happiness I can't even tell you. Yes this job gets extremely stressful and there are days I just want to give up, but in the end I am constantly reminded how much I love documenting and capturing these once-in-a-lifetime moments. During my shoots I try to be as happy and bubbly as possible (and how could you not be when you are having fun with your clients) and what I've learned is the happier I am during the session, the more happy my clients will look and feel in their photos. If I'm having a fun time and making sure my clients are having a wonderful experience as well, then the end results include happy couples who loved their session, love their photos, and walk away remembering how much fun they had and feel that way each time they look through their pictures.
3. HATERS GONNA HATE (Stealing this one from my friend Emily's blog, love you Em!) This one was hard for me to come to grips with. Not everyone is going to like you! Some people won't like your photography, or your style, or your personality. But that doesn't matter! What matters is how you feel about yourself and your work at the end of the day. If you are being the best you can possibly be, it shouldn't matter what other people say. I got my first ever "Hate" email from an anonymous person this year who called me a complete Moron. The message read "Just so you know I think you are a complete Moron for giving out the copyrights to your images." First of all, I have never given the copyrights out for my photos, only print releases. And second of all WHO THE HECK CARES?! Just the fact that someone would take time out of their day to send an email to make someone feel bad is gross to me. Haters gonna hate but you just got to brush it off and be the best you can be! :)
4. Give yourself credit: The best advice I got all year came from my husband. He grabbed my face after a hard day and said "You need to give yourself more credit. Be proud of what you have accomplished. You DESERVE to feel good about yourself." Sometimes we are constantly looking around to see what everyone else is doing. Especially in photography because there are SO MANY talented photographers in Utah. Seriously. I am blown away constantly by the talent. But because of that I find myself constantly comparing myself to others and never thinking that I am good enough. This isn't true. Sometimes you need to take a step back and look at yourself and say, I AM good enough. I am doing the best I can do and that's good enough for me! Now that doesn't mean you can't grow, learn, and become an even BETTER photographer and person! It just means that you need to be proud of yourself from time to time for how far you have come and how hard you have worked.
5. Work hard and put yourself out there, don't be afraid to dream BIG: Sometimes it's hard to put yourself out there. But I've learned that when you do, good things will come if you work hard! I have never worked so hard in my life than this past year. Growing a photography business in Utah has proved to be quite difficult but more rewarding than I could have ever imagined. I put myself out there this year and met some incredible photographers who I admire and can call my friends, got published on some wonderful blogs, was able to travel to Idaho, California, Boston, and Connecticut to do what I love and shoot weddings, and with help put together some unforgettable styled shoots just for fun to improve my skills. Blessed doesn't begin to cut it. Hard work and dedication over time and through lot's of tears, hustle, and stress I ended the year with a business that I was beyond proud of. Also a huge thanks to a very patient and loving husband. I found my true style this year. I actually found words that describe my style which I've never been able to before: romantic, free-spirited, airy, full of light, and happy.
I truly can't express how grateful I am. And I can't even begin to describe how excited I am for 2016! I already have a handful of beautiful brides who have booked with me, and lot's of exciting things that have happened for the next year! So see you later 2015 and bring on 2016!!
